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I want my life back. - Nobody wears a white coat any more...
...a tribute to becoming a doctor.
ayradyss
ayradyss
I want my life back.
Jefe wrote something beautiful for my Lily. I didn't even remember it was her birthday. And I can't read it without crying.
My tears have made a tiny speckled pattern on the inside of my glasses.
I shouldn't feel sorry for myself, I know. My Angel is as good as it gets, anyone who knows him would agree. Better even than Jefe, obviously, or I wouldn't be writing this.

And I don't want much, just the two years of my life where I've neglected my friends and abused my soulmate in the name of becoming something better...I want them back.
I don't want to be a doctor any more. Not when it's this bad. I've never wanted anything bad enough to put up with this. I just...

And I'm wasting time in self-pity, time I desperately need to spend studying. Because I can't afford to quit...

now feeling:: empty

5 whispers echo . o O ( ... ) O o . whisper a word
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daimones From: daimones Date: April 17th, 2003 06:23 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
*mrowrs quietly* Your heart belongs to him, darling. It hasn't necessarily to do with whose better, or worse. =)

You can't have time back, but we (your friends) can be there in the future. I can't speak for the entirety of your friends, but I don't think you've ever abused me. Nor neglected me.

We love you. Or we wouldn't be your friends, or we wouldn't hold you when you cry, or cheer you up when your sad. We want you to suceed. Perhaps more than you do because we know that you need to prove to yourself that you can do this.

Love.
lakos From: lakos Date: April 17th, 2003 06:40 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)

For better or worse...

.. for richer or poorer. In good times and bad times.

My Love, I'm here. You can do it. I know you can. And I'll be with you, every step of the way.

All my love....
ellisande From: ellisande Date: April 17th, 2003 06:58 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
*hugs gently* I can't speak for anyone else, but you most certainly haven't neglected this friend. We all know how hard it is for you, and we're here for you, whether it's to comfort you when you cry, or when you want someone to have some laughs with.

Love you, pretty-lady.
wintercolours From: wintercolours Date: April 17th, 2003 07:31 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Some of this is how I feel about law school, except I see no noble end, and I struggle every day with my decision to continue knowing it's so very unme. *sigh* But I've made the best of the other circumstances, so it's mostly okay. Still, shouldn't there be some kind of real, true answer? I wish you luck, no matter which way you choose.
piccolopixie From: piccolopixie Date: April 17th, 2003 10:23 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
*snuggles softly and tucks her love in your pockets for safe keeping*

5 whispers echo . o O ( ... ) O o . whisper a word