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...a tribute to becoming a doctor.
Five years...
I've been working on this entry for a long time, O Best Beloved, and I'm still not sure I've got it right. You see, there's a lot I could say if I had the words.

Today is Bastille Day, Quatorze juillet, and our five-year wedding anniversary. It's about the time in my long-term plan when I had intended to get married - definitely not before medical school was over, let alone before it first began. And I definitely didn't have plans to get married to the person I wound up married to.

I think I've told our story before - how I met a boy and passed him over without a thought, tangled myself in heedless heartless affairs, and came back in a circle when I had tied myself to someone I was never meant to be with. I think I've mentioned that first starlit kiss, and the casual-ness with which we entered into something that neither of us thought would endure.
I think I've said it all before. And I will never forget nor be allowed to forget that I am married to a man who is not my type.

Because he is, in fact, my type, so exquisitely and perfectly so that it has been nine years since I told him not to plan on dating past the end of the school year, and I have nearly forgotten the time before that. I have spent a third of my life in his regard, being alternately adored and goaded, knowing every moment of it that I am cherished and loved. This is the man who has made it possible for me to survive medical school - who labored over unpronounceable words on half-size notecards, who cheered me on and held me while I cried - the man who has uprooted his ambitions and aspirations over and over again to follow me.

He moved with me in his last year of college and drove an hour every day to attend classes. He kept the house together, alone, when I was renting a room two hours away - and he was never too busy to listen to me cry. He left a job he liked and the home we'd bought to move when I started residency, and he's still working even though one day, he wants to go back to school.
And he's always, always been there.

And I know he knows, but it bears saying again. I haven't missed the sacrifices he's made - and I haven't forgotten about all the things he's done. I know. And I'm as grateful as I can possibly be. Someday, I'll be able to give him a tenth of what he's given me.

I love this man. I always will. And it just gets better.

now feeling:: loved loved

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missysedai From: missysedai Date: July 14th, 2006 07:10 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Congratulations, dear. It's an adventure, isn't it?
pwwka From: pwwka Date: July 14th, 2006 07:12 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
And it just gets better.

Id agit vere.

Your marriage is always on my lips when I consider unions of perfect symbiosis. No he's not like you, but he is your compliment. He fills in all of your angles, and gives graciously for all of your curves. I, too, never expected you to marry someone like him, Nykki, but one need only glance at the both of you together to know that God's plans are far better than the ones we create in the cobwebs of our understanding.

Happy anniversary!
mama0807 From: mama0807 Date: July 14th, 2006 07:39 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Congratulations on 5 years, Nykki. May you and your beloved have many, many more to come.

I look forward to my own upcoming wedding anniversaries.
deadrose From: deadrose Date: July 14th, 2006 07:54 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Congratulations on your anniversary!

This autumn will be the 10th anniversary of the picnic that my beloved and I took, on an empty northwest beach in the thin October sun. That was the day we fell in love. We didn't admit it to ourselves, much less each other, for several months following, but we consider that to be our anniverary date.

It's a wondrous feeling, isn't it, to be with someone so deeply and intimately that love grows every day.
gamerchick From: gamerchick Date: July 14th, 2006 08:22 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
This was a lovely entry. Congratulations to the both of you.
albionschild From: albionschild Date: July 14th, 2006 08:25 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Congratulations to you both! May you have many years and much joy.
nessers From: nessers Date: July 14th, 2006 08:32 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
God, and I remember when you both went away to get married. Now I just feel old.

Congratulations to both of you on being superawesome.
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: July 14th, 2006 09:09 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Aha. You -are- still around :)
nessers From: nessers Date: July 14th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Yeah. I'm never -really- gone.
chemta From: chemta Date: July 14th, 2006 10:29 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)

Another memory

I remember you sitting on the floor of my room (eating mac and cheese, maybe?) worrying about the end of the school year and the unknown. I am so happy that the two of you have each other!

Jumping into the unknown always teaches us a lesson. The only problem is that you never know how painful or rewarding that lesson can be!
compxlicated From: compxlicated Date: July 14th, 2006 11:01 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
5 years already?!?! Wow! You two are the cutest couple and I know there are many happy years ahead to experience. Happy Anniversary!! <3
fyrfitrmedic From: fyrfitrmedic Date: July 14th, 2006 11:02 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Congrats and many more!
brakiss From: brakiss Date: July 14th, 2006 11:19 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Wow. 5 years already? Amazing. Can't believe it has been that long. It seems almost like yesterday that I was so sad that I couldn't attend your wedding because I was leaving for basic. I guess it was 5 years ago yesterday. ;)

Congrats! You guys have something that I so hope to achieve and I'm doing my best to get. I love you both as much if not more than my own family. I miss you guys.

ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: July 15th, 2006 12:12 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
I miss you too. Love you lots. And I can't wait until I get to see you again.
fortuna_juvat From: fortuna_juvat Date: July 15th, 2006 01:26 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
That was absolutely beautiful. I'm so happy for you both.
luka01 From: luka01 Date: July 15th, 2006 01:57 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
you guys have something truly beautiful! people only wish for a marriage like yours. have a wonderful anniversary!!
From: (Anonymous) Date: July 15th, 2006 03:24 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
Beautifully written, as usual. We are so glad you married Matt. He has been a wonderful addition to our family. May you enjoy many more years of happiness and adventure!
clipdude From: clipdude Date: July 15th, 2006 03:30 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
Wow. You two are very fortunate.

turnberryknkn From: turnberryknkn Date: July 15th, 2006 06:01 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Congratulations. And God bless. :-)
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