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So I sat with her all night... - Nobody wears a white coat any more... — LiveJournal
...a tribute to becoming a doctor.
So I sat with her all night...
Keynote speaker at last night's graduation banquet had me in tears, surreptitiously scrubbing my eyes. Medicine is, as she expressed so eloquently, composed of stories. I have brought you mine thus far; there will be more. I assure you, O Best Beloved, there will be more, and I am not going away. Residency will bring more patients, more problems, and most likely more angst - and I still have to find out how all of yours turn out.

It is hard to believe, O Best Beloved, that tomorrow afternoon I will put on cap and gown and drape my green velvet hood (satin flashing is crimson and white) over my arm and walk in to receive my diploma, my M.D. I hope it's in there. As of yesterday afternoon I was calling frantically to make sure my third and final Level 3 Competency had been approved.
It is hard to believe and yet it is not hard to believe. After all, my entire adult life has been directed toward this moment, this culmination. I have been in school, every year, without fail, for two decades in order to achieve this. The surreality of reaching a goal that it seems most people never even consider is something that strikes me in this moment, and the unreality of it will not be shattered until I am sitting in the auditorium, shifting from side to side on an uncomfortable chair, learning how much that much-desired triple-chevronned robe is going to bloody itch.
Reality, after all, is like that.

When we went to the house after closing on Thursday, I roamed freely through it. The previous owners left us their telephone number, in case of questions (they lived there 20 years and raised 4 children there); I will have a few I'm certain. But as I opened the garage door to look inside, I saw three heads peering over a car next door. Next-door neighbors - friendly and very nice from the outset, they changed at my response to the ritual question.
"What brings you out to $city, then?"
"I'm starting residency with $residency in July."
Eyes widened. "John! Come meet her! She's going to be a doctor!" And so on. In an instant, O Best Beloved - in a single word - things are transformed.
I am twenty-six years old, married, no children, young and idealistic and enthusiastic. Two cats. All of these statements make me someone in the eyes of my neighbors; "the young couple" we will be in this established neighborhood where people have children my age. But when I say I'm going to be a doctor I become an equal, no longer reminiscent of someone's daughter, someone to be respected and admired. And to the everyday people, the ones who don't know that family medicine scrapes the bottom of the barrel, to those people I am a family doctor and that is even better.
Isn't it a good thing that I have extraordinary stories to tell as well as the ordinary ones? You understand, O Best Beloved, you have been with me this time, learned how extraordinary the human creature is in its most mundane moments. But they do not - not yet.

Family Medicine residency is three years; I am on the rural track for the duration. There is a fourth-year Primary Care OB fellowship at this institution that I am eyeing covetously already. I will be rotating through everything a good family doctor needs to know - which is, as you know by now, everything.

This is your invitation, O Best Beloved, to come along for the ride. Bring your own snacks and sodas and be warned: this may be at times less a guided tour and more of an interactive maelström - but you've been there before with me and I've made it through thus far.
And won't it be exciting?

now feeling:: excited anticipatory

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turnberryknkn From: turnberryknkn Date: May 7th, 2005 02:51 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
And won't it be exciting?

(big grin) Yes, yes it will.

Thanks for having us along for the journey. :-)
trinapink From: trinapink Date: May 7th, 2005 03:00 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Oh, congratulations! So incredibly exciting!

And will it be exciting...heck, yes! I'm strapped in and ready to roll.
kesil From: kesil Date: May 7th, 2005 05:24 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
I have heard good things about that particular OB fellowship from certain neonatologists.
From: clypheous Date: May 7th, 2005 07:19 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
I'm happy for you and I must admit to a certain level of jealousy. People don't have quite the same reaction when they find out you're an attorney. I think it would be more likely "John! Hide the children! He's going to be an attorney!"

All kidding aside though I wish you all the best and I regret that I won't be able to make it to your graduation due to finals and preparing for the MPRE.

I wish you all the best on your coming adventure and look forward to the stories that it will bring. Congratulations sis, you're going to be a doctor!

missysedai From: missysedai Date: May 7th, 2005 08:23 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Goosebumps. This gave me GOOSEBUMPS!!

Congratulations, dearie. You're gonna be an awesome doc.
tyomniye From: tyomniye Date: May 7th, 2005 10:48 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Yay, Dr. Nykkit! Now if only we could end up in the same place so you could be my Dr. :)
pwwka From: pwwka Date: May 8th, 2005 01:25 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Not just a great doctor; a great writer and poet, which you will always be, before and after the piece of paper that changes your life.

Don't tell the neighbors you're a writer, though. They'll likely give you an odd look and wonder what countries you have in your wardrobe.

All right, maybe just the odd look.

*grins* I love you, Cat.
gamerchick From: gamerchick Date: May 8th, 2005 03:11 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
You are going to do awesome. Congratulations in advance...and you know I will be here to hear those stories, too. (c:
amasashi From: amasashi Date: May 8th, 2005 04:04 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
You know, in Taiwan, family medicine is one of the most competitive specialties, right up there with dermatology and ophthalmology. Something to think about :-)

Congratulations on making it through medical school, Doctor!!
From: dr_bobbie Date: May 9th, 2005 01:34 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
I've got it, my proof. My diploma.

I think I'm in shock.
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: May 9th, 2005 01:44 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
You too?
I ripped the tube open surreptitiously while they were calling names just to see if there was anything in there...
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