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So silent are you... - Nobody wears a white coat any more...
...a tribute to becoming a doctor.
ayradyss
ayradyss
So silent are you...
I went to a friend's wedding this weekend.  One of my med school classmates.  I caught up with all the others who were there, the group of sixteen that I spent two years with and never felt a part of.  I smiled and exchanged all the proper words.  I enjoy talking with A-who-is-on-a-Navy-scholarship and his wife who is so beautiful she almost hurts to look at, in that soft and touchable sort of beauty: skin the shade of cooling caramel, small and snubbed nose, even, natural smile that breaks light across a serious face, black hair that curls around and begs to be twirled in fingers.  I enjoy it because A and I have made peace with our vastly differeing viewpoints and we can exchange words with some interest in each others' lives.  I enjoy talking with tiny fragile L, so sweet, so genuinely nice.  And P was not there.  I did not expect her to be, not with a baby born at 26 weeks in July to fret over (I did not know until her baby was a month out of the womb), but it would have been nice to tell her that I found six programs to apply to.  When last I saw her she and J made noises of delight and envy over my Step 2 scores and then scolded me for only wanting to apply to two residency programs.  It's suicide!  And I promised her, at least five.
I hit "apply" last night and filled in credit card numbers.  As soon as I hear back from D&D the pediatricians, I will have all of my recommendation letters requested.  I hope that my Dean's Letter is getting done, I have not heard from my advisor who is two and a half hours from me.

It is six o'clock in the morning, O Best Beloved.  Tonight, Angel will go to fencing and I will take ecchikun with me to do a first-pass look at the kittens available from Animal Control for adoption.  We are looking for two.  Angel will come with us again tomorrow, and hopefully we will pick two out, bring them home a day or two after that.  Hopefully they will not get lost in our house.  Hopefully I have moved the poisonous plants to the closed room, but I imagine I will have to move all the plants to satisfy my peace of mind.
And now I start a family medicine month with an OB rotation, here at home. It is so wonderfully strange to wake up next to my Angel and know that in the grey pre-dawn, that I will come home to him at night.

now feeling:: calm calm

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pwwka From: pwwka Date: October 4th, 2004 04:05 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Never liked the niceties-- very good at them you were, but something fey in your heart rebelled. There was so much to do and say and feel that small-talk meant very little next to them. So it seemed to a thief.

Wee, plush little kittens with rough tongues and batting paws? Oh dear. I'd worry more about the draperies and the table legs than the plants... (ahhh, lovely plants. Remember my stash of African violets? They all perished on Maryland water. Every now and then I look avariciously at a row of them in the store and nudge my husband. Soon I shall have my booty.) Ahem. Yes. Do let me know what you'll be naming them. I've written two guessed names quite secretly on the underside of a stone elephant. Let's see how well I remember you. *winks*

Do D&D the Pediatricians prefer the d20 approach, or are they still stuck plotting THAC0?

*grins* Sorry, couldn't resist.
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: October 4th, 2004 10:58 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
We are discussing names biblical, philosophical, and literary at the moment; I will be sure to let you know.

I have an African violet which is overflowing its pot and has even been coaxed to bloom.

I also have a coat-of-arms on fine silvered metal, amethyst and black, that has come with me through the years.
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ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: October 6th, 2004 03:29 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
And the verdict on names is Zev and Kai.
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: October 6th, 2004 04:52 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
I correct myself: Xev and Kai. We're using the remade Xev and not the original.
pwwka From: pwwka Date: October 6th, 2004 03:33 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
*laughs* I had to look it up to find they're from Lexx. I don't think I watched a day of the show in my life-- shall have to inquire of my brother, as I believe he's the Farscape/Lexx fanatic.

Speaking of Sci-Fi Channel shows, did you see what they're doing to A Wizard of Earthsea?! I shudder... all of Ursula's carefully crafted reversals, from skin tone to religion, are being reversed again. They cast a white man as Ged! *sigh* I don't think I'll be able to watch it. Rather like the presidential debates: they took my high standards of what a true debate should be and trampled themselves and their supposed intelligence into the dirt. It's petty, it's sad-- I think I'll just retreat into my books and leave them to mess it up.
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: October 6th, 2004 04:26 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
I saw the ad for it once and thought "ooh, neat" but I didn't follow up.
Now I'm going to have to look into it.

We actually bought the first two seasons of Lexx from Canada because they're so hard to find in the US.

They're not presidential debates, they're presidential forums to look like children.
pwwka From: pwwka Date: October 6th, 2004 12:33 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
*grins wickedly* Who could have paired you with such a shield?
lincolncent From: lincolncent Date: October 4th, 2004 07:53 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
hey n- i'm still in town. it would be terribly loverly to get to see the two of you this week/weekend. beth is also really anxious to see you. what does your schedule look like? can you pencil us in?
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: October 4th, 2004 10:56 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Schedule looks around 7a-6p weekdays, unlikely they'll want me around weekends.
Happy to pencil in :)
loonyatcbh From: loonyatcbh Date: October 5th, 2004 02:03 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Anxious? I'm not *anxious,* lincolncent, at least not about anything that doesn't have to do with my job this week or the clash between my romantic illusions and prosaic reality. :p

I *would* love to see you guys, though.
turnberryknkn From: turnberryknkn Date: October 4th, 2004 11:01 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Luck with your continuing applications, and glad you get to spend some time at home. :-)
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