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Not so accidental any more...
Have been running myself ragged for the last two days. A longer update to follow, perhaps, when I have a moment to myself...

Kansas City is lovely. If you come here, do visit the Hereford House and have steak. It's worth the $30 price tag. Deeelicious.

The IAFP called me on Monday. "Do you have an e-mail that we can send our resolution to?" Dr. F, the outbound president, had asked me to carry a resolution to the KC congress. More on the IAFP later. I told D where to send it. "Have you thought about running for an elected position?"

Perhaps I should've said "I don't want to." But I said "Well, sort of," which was the truth. I encourage you to run, she says to me. It'll be good for you to have the experience.
I looked at the positions. There is one, "Student Representative to the Society of Teachers of Family Medicine," that sounded interesting. And I heard the refrain over and over again. "You should run for something." I'm already a delegate, after all. And I gave in. G nominated me; the one person who was going to run against me backed down because she felt that she was perhaps over-extending herself and didn't want to take the position away from someone excited about it; I spent yesterday and today frantically scrabbling together a CV and letter of interest between workshops and business meetings; I just finished writing a speech. All I need is a letter from the dean's office saying they endorse me taking the position, and a letter from the IAFP saying they'll back me up. And those can come later.

We speechify, and then we vote, tomorrow. As of now, I'm running unopposed. I'm terrified.
But I'm trusting in the still small voice that said I should at least try. I'm trusting in the fact that I tried to talk J out of withdrawing, but she decided her mind was made up. I'm trusting that this is the path I was meant to take. And if I have to swallow my fear and step up to the microphone, then it's the least I can do.

After all, it is not my will that must be done.

now feeling:: worried worried

9 whispers echo . o O ( ... ) O o . whisper a word
brakiss From: brakiss Date: July 31st, 2004 12:34 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
My next duty station is about an hour from KC. :)
samila From: samila Date: July 31st, 2004 12:47 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
Oh, hell, I know you'll do great. Don't worry about it.
waifofthenorth From: waifofthenorth Date: July 31st, 2004 01:32 am (UTC) (etched in stone)
My cousin is going to school in kansas city. Maybe I'll visit and take the art student out for good steak. I don't think art students can afford good steak.

I think you'll do great :)

*votes for you*
mdrnprometheus From: mdrnprometheus Date: July 31st, 2004 02:19 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)

Welcome to the front lines.

You've just taken the same first step that turnberryknkn and I took, each in different ways, so long ago. It sounds like maybe somebody had to nudge you onto the road, but that's OK too. He and I have come away with different feelings about our service, but I think we both agree we're glad we did it.

Welcome to the fight for a better health care system. What you're going to do may seem small, but it matters, and it may be the road to something bigger, if you're willing to face that responsibility. There are politics, and there'll be work, and you'll go to your meetings and wonder what the heck you're doing here, and whether it's your place to speak up, and you'll be afraid. And then, you'll find your voice, and you'll do some good.

I think perhaps you should start reading alikforchair. You may find that the things in there start to matter a bit more now.

ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: July 31st, 2004 10:46 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)

Re: Welcome to the front lines.

This isn't the place I meant to be, nor the one I thought I'd be in, but that's hardly the first time I've felt that way.

As I said to someone else, the election went through unopposed, and I have the position by acclamation. Now I'm feeling a bit shell-shocked...but at least I still believe what I said in my campaign speech.
turnberryknkn From: turnberryknkn Date: August 1st, 2004 11:58 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)

Re: Welcome to the front lines.

Congratulations, and as mdrnprometheus put it above, welcome. :-)

I'm very sorry I've missed your posts recently and thus was unable to add to the comments to your questions about being an activist and a delegate; but in the end, its your decency and your compassion that will be your most important assets. That requires no advice from us. You strive always to do the right thing as best as you can. That's really, in the end, all you really need to know.

8Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?"

And I said, "Here am I; send me!"

    -Isaiah 6:8

ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: August 2nd, 2004 12:19 am (UTC) (etched in stone)

Re: Welcome to the front lines.

You've been busy. Means a lot to know I've got you guys behind me in spirit, even if you don't post all-the-time. :)
zecular From: zecular Date: July 31st, 2004 10:33 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
It's amazing how that small voice can carry you to the farthest of your ability, then give you the courage and strenth to go a little farther.

You see, it's the small voice that will teach you, grow you and refine you.

Much love.

As for me-- I'm contemplating extended time in Mexico.
ayradyss From: ayradyss Date: July 31st, 2004 10:43 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Much love to you as well, Lady.

The election went through unopposed; I have the position and I'm feeling a little bit shell-shocked.
9 whispers echo . o O ( ... ) O o . whisper a word