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sum·ma·tion. Noun. 4: a final part of an argument reviewing points made and expressing conclusions. - Nobody wears a white coat any more...
...a tribute to becoming a doctor.
ayradyss
ayradyss
sum·ma·tion. Noun. 4: a final part of an argument reviewing points made and expressing conclusions.
Exam re-taking went well today, I suppose. Improved from my original scores on all but one exam by 10-20 points. I must be learning something. Highlight: 93% accuracy on the Semester 1 Final. How clear my mind seems now. How much of that was improved by my notes all over the exam? I'll never know. Progress, however, is good. Now to put away Pathology, and study Medicine until Wednesday.

Roleplaying went well. Much opportunity for character development was seen, then lost as the conversation drifted away and we wrapped up before I got a chance to think about it. He isn't who I want him to be, and it's because I'm so used to having a chance to really interact. It seems like things have gotten more and more sparse, with nothing getting started until 9 or 10, then ending by 12 or 1. Nobody really seems to care. It was fun, nonetheless.

I think...you know, that sums up how I'm feeling right now. Much opportunity for character development, and no time to develop the character. I see people in flashes, with other people, I talk to them online briefly - no expressions, no touch, no eye contact. Nothing that comes securely into the real (do I do anything real any more?)...
No chance to talk. No time to talk. No long stretches of comfortable silence, no time spent just for company and companionship and to feel the soft tugging of the thing that ties us together, we two. No time for two, no time for time, for trouble, for thought...no time. No time, and no (it seems in the dark aftermidnight) desire to make a time. Just this hollow empty sociability, a shallow skin-deep high-school fulfillment that exhausts me and drags out the pained and broken child within.


I know 
      you,
the cold and calloused
         girl I was, 
                will be

who
    for you had been to me
            before the sad 
                    and silent sea

                            I knew
you
    were me
           I knew one day
                   I knew the dream
        would flee

                the girl I was
                            the girl I'll be

I see
       today 
             is not tomorrow, wait
                      for me
         you know
               I see
                    I was
                           I knew

you.
                          "vingt-quatre"


Goodnight, moon.

now feeling:: sad sad

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ellisande From: ellisande Date: April 25th, 2003 11:46 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
*hugs softly* Love you, pretty-lady.
loonyatcbh From: loonyatcbh Date: April 26th, 2003 09:57 am (UTC) (etched in stone)

hugs and long chats...in person even!

nykkit dearest, we need to get together sometime before I leave for Germany (September)... think you can squeeze me in? Then we can get in some of that eye contact and stuff.

Graduation's four weeks from tomorrow. Scary, eh?

liebe Gruesse...
phloxin From: phloxin Date: April 28th, 2003 01:54 pm (UTC) (etched in stone)
Do you mean my campaign? I'm sorry if it is. I'm glad you're having fun, but I want you to like your characters and also let me DM again sometime.
It's frustrating for me too. I would have longer encounters or whatnot (and it's not for lack of planning) and I'm trying to give you all special attention (hence the family reunion), but I guess I'm all self concious and thinking you guys don't want to play. Or some things take longer because of all the sidenotes we get on OOCly and I end up having to quit before what I really wanted to get done that night is complete.
We can talk about it more later .. have have some questoins anyway.
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